i stayed home from school today cause i didn't want to go. so my grandma called me in and i've been home all day lounging around.

so, in my last entry i talked about my friend dying do you want to hear the details?

well, his name was troy. he's charlie's cousin, so i hung out with him a lot at the beginning of the summer. i saw him at the races every week, and when charlie and i got together, he was usually with us. well charlie's little sister got lukemia so she was in the hospital, so their whole family was at their grandma's house. well troy was out riding the 4-wheeler with his little brother and a truck came over a hill and hit him. troy got stuck underneath and was dragged 400-500 ft and died. he was a really good friend of mine that i talked to regularly and its just not the same w.o him. i miss him a lot.

well that happened early last week and i thought i was pretty much recovered from it. well this morning i called my mom at work and she told me that my step dad's mom took a bunch of pills and tried to kill herself this morning. she's in the inensive care unit and not doing too good.

this week has pretty much been really shitty. i've been in depressed mode for a while, and now it'll be even longer. so if i'm a bitch, i'm sorry.

i don't feel like typing in this right now. leave comments. whatever.

this week kind of sucked. one of my very good friends died. i didn't get to go to his funeral either. lots of crying happened twords the end of the week. but i think my friends and i are okay, now. its just different without him in my life.

one of this weeks good points is that our football team won last night 56-0. and last week it was 45-0. so this is going to be an awesome season. well i can't see bc my contacts don't like me right now. so i'll write in this another day.

I need to get my homework done. But, of course, instead of doing it I'm on the internet. This free shit actually goes pretty fast and it lets me do whatever I want to.

I'm excited to see Shoma. I missed her loads the whole time. I can't wait till she comes to Marshalltown and i get to see her swim. I like to swim, but I'd never be on a team I'm halfway decent at it, but I get to nervous and choke in competiions. Shome-dawg, I can't wait to see you.

MATT DIDN'T DITCH ME=]. Like, two weeks ago Matt & Chris came over and like a half-hour later Ellie, Breana, and Shawn came over. Then we all went to Ellie's house. Then I had to come home and they all stayed @ Ellie's. Well sinse that day Matt hasn't called me or came over or anything. I thought he was being an asshole and he was going to ditch me sinse school started, but today in study hall I went up to him and asked him about it. Well, stupid ass that I am, I forgot that he was building a house w. his dad after school and on weekends, so he doesn't have any free time. He said that when he has a day off that him and Chris will come see me. He also gave me money. True sign right there that he still loves me=]. I'm HAPPY. It made me want to cry thinking that he ditched me. I love my Matthew Ryan. He's my best friend.

WHAT HAPPENED TO JEREMY? I don't have any messengers anymore, sinse this is only a free fucker. But I'm getting the real internet back soon and that's when I'll download them again. so tell him to come here and comment on it so I can talk to him. I don't care who tells him, just somebody do it.

Okay. I'm going now. JEN-whatever happened to 'im going to call you, tina'. do it. NOW. =] I love you.

hello guys. my name is tina, in case you have forgotten. i haven't had any desire to get on the computer for 2 months. did you miss me?

school started tuesday. its off to the big bad high school. its not so bad, though. i know a lot of people there and its good not to have to look at all the little fuckers anymore. now I'M the little fucker. =] i don't care though, eat me bitches.

i finally saw nick again. at first i didn't notice him but then he grabbed me and screamed 'HEY' i never would have known he was there. i love that kid though. he's a sexy beast.

my classes are alrite. there's only a few classes that i dont know many people in. i don't eat lunch either. my whole family thinks i'm going anorexic. i'm not though, I EAT. i really do. just not that often. and not that big of foods. i don't know why, i don't TRY not to eat. i'm just never hungry anymore. maybe its because i've turned into a better tina than before and i don't do weed therefore i don't get the munchies. i've shown no signs of skinnyness yet, though. so all this shit is doing me no good, just getting me yelled and making me have food shoved in my face 24/7.

i decided to be a football manager with breana and gina. its a lot better with just us 3 and not courtney like it was in track. football is fun. we get to stand on those drill things and have the guys ram against the cushions and push us. do you know what i mean? well i know what i mean.

i pretty much hate tabby now. i don't talk to her. EVER. she's a two-faced bitch and she needs to die=]

sam is pulling her no school shit again. she didn't go to school for half the year last year and she hasn't gone yet this year either. i get a ride to school everyday from breana and i was supposed to on the first day but sam bitched cause she didn't want to go by herself. so i caved in and finally said i'd go with her. so on tuesday when her dad pulled into the driveway she wasn't in the car. she's pulling the "I'M SICK, I'M SICK" shit again. she called me last night and asked me who i was going to school with today and i said breana. she started talking about me going with her and i told her to fuck off. i said that i gave up going with a group of friends to go with her so she wouldn't have to go alone, then she ditches me and makes me show up on the first day by myself. i pretty much ripped that bitch a new asshole. i went on for like 10 minutes bitching at her. then she just sat there and wouldn't talk.

okay. i'm done with this shit. email me bitches.

lx_tinaferz_xl@hotmail.com

Okay, Molly, his name is Nick Danner, and he's going to be a junior next year at MHS. IDK if you know him. He's friends w. all the stoners and he goes to the barn all the time. But he's totally innocent. He's the a designated driver there, he makes sure no one fucks themselves up. And you know he's not a total douche when he thinks that Chad Bryant is uber gay. You and I usually don't have the same taste in guys, so you probably don't like him, but sinse I've gotten to know him really well, he's one of the coolest guys I know.

Today Spear split Me, Jill, and Nicole up w. Austin cause he quit yesterday to he sent us to the other bus going to the good field. When we got on the bus, guess who was there? NICK. Muahaha. He was our checker ALL DAY LONG. I swear my aim has gotten so much better sinse detassling has started. We throw them at each other all day long. And we have so many inside jokes now. Nick's crazy thought, cause he can't say things like the world "dick" in front of the girls w.o laughing his ass off. He's always smiling or laughing. Sinse I started liking him, ALL OF THE GIRLS LIKE HIM. Pisses me off. Today I was talking to his girl named Andrea and we were talking about how Jill and Nichole try to get Nick to be with them all the time, so we went really slow and he stayed behind with us a lot of the time. She's really cool and if I get a job at Heartland then I'll work with her. At the end we were smiling at each other, and we're both like 'WE WIN' at exactly the same time. It was great. We did win, too, cause Nick stayed w. us the whole time. We had a water fight on the bus at the end of the day. The bus driver was Nick's step-dad. He didn't give a shit what we did. There was like a fucking flood in the back of the bus. I was so soaked it was crazy. Then Chase, this huge funny ass black guy that I was sitting next to got out his huge cooler of kool-aide and dumped it on this guy. It was great. I saved my water and I was going to dump it on Nick but I dumped it on Jill instead. It still had ice in it and everything. She was like screaming. I was about to piss my pants.

Matt, Chris, and I cleaned out the basement of my mom's house last night and took a TV and couch down there. It's like our own spot and now they can come over whenever they want cause there's always somewhere for us to be. We're down there 24/7 now and its so awesome. Tonight while we were down there we turned off all the light and like, fell asleep on each other in the dark. I sat in the middle, Chris had his head on my stomach and Matt was laying on my arm. I was like conked out. Chris was like trying to molest me. After a while it got boring so Matt called Jeff (his brother) to come pick them up and he actually did cause just last night he traded his car for a new S-10. It was pretty cool. Shit, I love my friends. =]

Alright, I'm through. If I come over here tommorow night I'll tell you about more adventures with Nick (HOPEFULLY WE'RE W. HIM TOMMOROW). Matt and Chris will probably come over again so it'll probably be around this time again. Goodbye =]
-TINA.

I absolutely love detassleing now. Seriously. I don't know why though. Well, acutally I do. I have one word for you. NICK. He makes everything better. I don't think I could live through one more day of that shit without him. I've fallen head over heals for that boy. He looks like he would be the type of guy that would get high and drunk all the time, but he's not. HE GOES TO CHURCH ON A REGULAR BASIS. Plus he's FUCKING HOT. He's got an awesome sense of humor, too. Nothing will ever end up happening between us, but I can seriously see me and him hanging out after the job is over. And I'll see him next year @ school. At first, Jill really liked Texas (AKA Brett), and I thought that we could like, have Me, Nick, Texas and her and everything would be fine and dandy. But what does she have to do? She has to start liking NICK. She said that she just thinks he's hot and that he's got an awesome sense of humor. But honestly, he's not her type of guy. She's too high maintenence. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death, but they're just not right for each other. Now now guys, don't go off on this whole, "OMG TINA, YOU'RE CHEATING ON JEREMY" because I'm not. It's just an innocent crush on a totally perfect guy. I haven't even talked to Jeremy in like, weeks. I miss him a lot. IDK how this whole relashionship thing is going to work if he only gets on MSN and of course, the one thing that's been fucked up on my computer lately is MSN. Oh well, It'll work out. cause it always does. It'll be 11 months on July 27. HOLY SHIT or what?

Cornfield Jokes:

Why don't Chinese people have phonebooks? Because there's so many Wing's and Wong's you might Wing the Wong number.

How do Chinese people name their kids? They dump out the silverwear drawer. CHING. CHONG. CHUNG.

HAHAHA. Those were my jokes. Me and my idiotic friends (Jill, Nichole, Austin, Nick) thought those were funny. Nick's was the best, though.

These guys are driving down the road and their car breaks down in front of this old farm. They go to the door and ask the man if they can use his phone. They call their friends but they won't be able to get picked up until the following day. The man says, "Alrite, you can sleep in my barn overnight, but my daughter's staying there, and if anyone of you boys sleep with her I'll remove your penis in the way that your father works.." Well, naturally, all three of the boys sleep with her. Well, the father finds out and when the boys wake up the man is waiting there for them. He goes up to the first one and asks him what line of work is father is in. He says a butcher so the farmer cuts his dick off. The farmer goes to the second guy and he says that his father is a cook so he boils his dick. Well he goes to the third guy and asks him what line of work his father is in and the third boy says, "Well, my father's a lollipop maker so you'll have to suck mine off."

ROFL. Is that not one of the funniest things ever? He told another one but it's really racist and you never know who might read these things. I'm not a racist person, and neither are my friends, but a few racist jokes are always good here and there. I mean, how do us caucasion (sp?) people know that the black guys and mexcans don't have a whole line of jokes about us? The probably do.

Alright, I'm about done. Comment on me bitches.

The last few days have been great. I have a feeling this will be a long, EXCITING entry. You might want to read all of it.

Mike called me on Wednesday and said that he was going to stay the night at his cousin Chris's house that night. He said that they were gong to steal his mom's van and drive around town all night and they wanted me to go with them. Naturally, I said yeah. But then that night when it came time to actually sneaking out, I chickened out and told them I wasn't going. Then the next day he called me and told me that they were going to do it again and he wanted me and my cousn Sam to go with them, and RC was going to go with them, too. I said yeah, thinking that everything would be okay. But the closer it came to time, the more I realized what they were doing and how much trouble we would get in if we got caught. And I had this funny feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just knew that they were going to get caught. So I called Chris's cell phone at like 1:30 and told them that I wasn't going because I had to get up and detassel in the morning. So they all went and sure enough they got caught. i wouldn't have had anything to do with it but when Chris's mom found out she checked his phone and saw that I had called. So Vickie, Mike's mom found out and she told my dad. She said that I was smart enough to tell them no, so I didn't get into any trouble. See, I'm getting smarter, and I don't smoke pot or drink anymore. Haven't done that in a long time. If you gave me a drug test right now, I'd be clean. No joke. I'm proud of myself. The second I said I wasn't going to do it anymore, I didn't.

Detasseling started yesterday. It was shit though, cause it was so hot, and our whole group got split up, so I ended up being with just Austin all day yesterday. But today was FUCKING GREAT. The group was Me. Nichole, Jill, and Austin. There was this guy there so we asked him to get our checker. He said yeah, and the first few rounds we didn't really talk to him. But after a while we all started talking and that guy is so fucking awesome. Not that bad looking, either. the whole time we were picking the tassels we were telling dirty jokes and he let us say anything we wanted. Then i started taking the tips off of the tassels and I'd throw them at him. Finally that turned into like a huge fucking war. It was me and Nick against the three of them. It was so awesome. Then finally I got sick of picking tassels so I made him pick mine and I was the checker. I was making fun of him and it was so great. I had everyone laughing. He said that we were his favorite group. So we all decided that us 4 would be a group tommorow, and we would have him as a checker. He instantly agreed. By the end of the day, he was like my new best friend. I absolutly love that kid. We told racist jokes, mamma jokes, and we would say a swear word and attach a totally random word to the end. like 'ass curtin' and 'shit steak'. Ha, you have no idea how much fun it was. We have the day off tommorow but we're back again on Sunday. I've made $90 in two days. FUCK YES.

Tonight, I came over here after I took a shower and everything when I got home from detasseling I was just sitting here waiting to go to the races, and Matt calls. He had planned on going camping this weekend with Afton, which I had known about, So I was kind of surprised when I heard he wanted me to call him. Well when I called him he told me that he decided that he didn't want to go camping and he wanted to come over here. Hell yes. MATT CHOSE ME OVER AFTON. I never thought that would happen in a million and 500 years. But it did. So my mom let me stay at her house while everyone went to the races. It was just me and Matt here all night long and it was great. Everying PG rated. We're just really good friends. I love him so much, and I was like ecstatic when he said he was coming over. I think he's coming over here tommorow, too. He asked me if he could. OF COURSE HE CAN.

Alrite, well I'm going to get off this computer and watch TV.

Goodbye.=]

i got new colors.

whaddaya think?

I went to Tabby's yesterday. Big fun filled fucking day of sitting on our asses. But Charlie drove by so I called him and he came and gave me a ride home =] He smelled really good and rose up temptations about wanting him back again, but nothing is going to go on. Promise.

I'm sitting at my mom's house. Matt just called and told me that he's coming over tommorow. Lol. He just told me. Naturally I said okay. Matt's just a good friend. No benifits. He's fun to hang out with. Him and Chris lit off fireworks tonight. I couldn't go, though, because they went with Chris's dad.

Shoma, I don't support what you did, but I'm happy to know you won't do it again. I love you too much, and you're better than that. I know you're strong enough to get through it. And remember, I only live 40 miles away. Even if you just want to get away for a day, you're more than welcome to come. I love you, take care of yourself. And we all miss Eric as much as you do. He'll come back for you, I know he will.

Jen, I miss talking to you. I love reading your entries because everything is so random and you always shock me at what you say. And your life seems so exciting. It seems like I don't know anything about you anymore. Email me and keep in touch, because at the rate we're going, we won't ever be online at the same time.

Alrite. Time to go wait for Cameron to get online. *Sigh*

HELLO. It's ME, Tina. Im sitting here at my mom's house. There's lots of people here today. A few hot guys walked in here earlier. I thought Jonny was here but he wasn't. The guys that come around here are cool because you can just sit and talk to them and they don't expect anything out of you.

Samantha was upstaires earlier, in the other apartment. My mom kicked her out of here because she stole her mom's car the other night and she got caught. So my mom was really mad at her but I guess she isn't all that mad anymore and she said that I could go upstaires and talk to her with those guys, but Samantha couldn't come down here. Yeah, there's some fucked up shit in my friends lately. Just be happy I'm not in on any of it. I've been staying out of trouble. I haven't even been argueing with my parents as much, either. Life is good right now and I'm liking how things are going. I'm looking to get a job sometime in the next few weeks. I'll get off my ass eventually and do it, but hopefully its sometime soon.

HEY. MY DAD'S HERE. whoa. Dad at mom's house. I gotta go. Bye

~Basics~
Name: Christina
Age: 14
Sex: Female
DOB: March 12, 1990
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: blonde
Height: 5'19"
School: MHS
Residence: Iowa.
Parents: LeAnn & Kurt, Charles.
Siblings: sister, Carly. step-brother, Aaron.
Pets: cat and 3 hermit crabs
Crush: i absolutely love matt. but jeremy is my crush. my everything.
First Kiss: this guy named manuel. didnt mean anything to me.


~Either/Or~
This/That: Does it really matter?
Brunette/Blonde: Blonde
White/Black: Black
Kiss/Hug: Kiss
Summer/Winter: summer
Fall/Spring: spring
AF/AE: Neither
Saturday/Sunday: Saturday
Candy/Pop: both.
Ocean/Lake/Pool: Ocean
Britney/Christina: um. Britney. only cause Christina is a dumb ugly slut
Mandy/Jessica: Mandy. Jessica is too ditzy.
BSB/NSYNC: BSB. i used to be IN LOVE with them.
Pop/Punk: Punk!
Prep/Skater: Skater.
Hippie/Goth: hippie. they are so cool.
Nerd/Dork: nerd.
Purple/Pink: Purple
Dark/Light: Dark
Boxers/Briefs: boxers
MTV/VH1: MTV


~Favorites~
Color:green
Food: mashed potatoes
Drink: welch's strawberry <3
Type of Music: country / rap / pop i guess.
Band/Singer: blink 182 / martina mcbride
Song: i can't sleep
Album: blink 182
Website: http://games.yahoo.com
Actor: matt damon
Actress: tara reid
Relative: mom and dad
Store: maurices
Movie: the sandlot
Animal: cat.
Month & Why: march. bday
Season: spring
Flower: rose
Quote: don't have one that comes to mind.
Finger: ring finger.
Candy: pop rocks
Gum: bubblicious
Toothpaste: crest
Sex position: idk.
Ex-boyfriend: charlie.
Perfume: swiss army
Cologne: adidas
Shampoo: herbal essences
Time of Day: 10 pm. when my dad gets home from training =]
Teacher: maher.
Insect: favorite insect..? hate them all.
Clothing Item You Own: babu tatto shop t-shirt from steven & barry's.


~Least Favorite~
Color: yellow.
Food: clams
Drink: prune juice.
Type of Music: opra.
Band/Singer: the one mouse band. their fags.
Song: that one decunstruction song on mtv.
Album: eminem.
Website: www.shiteaters.com
Actor: idk.
Actress: idk.
Relative: almost anyone on the oetker side.
Store: claire's.
Movie: master and commander
Animal: snakes.
Month & Why: november. gray and boring.
Season: spring.
Flower: idk
Quote: idk
Finger: pointer
Candy: mexican candy. i don't know why but i can't eat that.
Gum: dentyne ice.
Toothpaste: its just toothpaste.
Sex position: donno.
Ex-boyfriend: Andrew
Perfume: idk. cheap shit?
Cologne: cheap stuff..
Shampoo: hotel shampoo.
Time of Day: lunch time. i hate food.
Teacher: miller. bitch.
Insect: all of them
Clothing Item You Own: jeans that don't flare out at the bottom and are uber gay that my grandma bought for me.


~People You Know~
Best Friend: matt.
Hate the Most: tabby
Most Attractive: matt
Most Unattractive: i dont wanna say..
Funnest: matt
Funniest: ellie
Meanest: tabby
Nicest: kata
Loudest: ellie
Quietest: dakota
Two-faced: God. everyone.
Sweetest: darrin
Biggest Flirt: sam
Least Flirtatious: holly
Best Kisser: idk.
Gives Best Advice: breana
Most Exciting: breana
Most Boring: sam when she invites you over and sits and talks on the phone the whole time.
Stupidest: jessica
Smartest: aaron
Most Creative: breana
Always Argues: tabby
_____iest: tabby.
Most Calm: none of them.
Always Angry: chris
Always Happy: matt
Most Normal: none of them lol
Most WEIRD:ellie
Best Hair: jordan
Best Eyes: kata
Best Eyebrows: kata
Best Smile: jordan
Best Laugh: ellie.
Best Clothes: jordan.
Best Body: JORDAN.
Best Ass: breana. lol.
Best Nose: idk.
Best Hands: breana
Best Fingernails: jessica
Best Handwriting: jordan
Best Skin: jordan


no time to do the rest bye.